It’s been a few good days. As per a past discussion with my doctor, the plan has been to “get ahead of it.” Don’t wallow in pain! Let’s adjust, re-calibrate and then push forward! I’m also grateful he didn’t fire me as a patient. Given his speciality, I’m probably a mid-range nuisance.
It isn’t the standard American, “have you tried to stop being sick?” which is something I myself have to overcome being a child of the Seventies/Eighties. I’ve actually been more compassionate to others, it’s me I had the most trouble with in my evaluation toward being a better person.
What’s weird is that I’m calmer, happier in group again. Not as much as last time but still. It’s safe environment and in an odd way, I feel more control which maybe I shouldn’t. One of my biggest problems is relaxing and letting go because we can only control so much, so little (compared to the planet). As long as the Short-Fingered Vulgarian doesn’t cause the West Coast to glow in the dark, I can resist the urge to say, “I told you so!” in response to “you can’t control everything” statements.
That was rather dark. Fear not. I’m better and growing better daily.